Thursday, November 4, 2010

what a long strange trip it's been

I feel like I have been having a bit of an out of body experience this past week. Well, not really. But it is always weird comming down from the "high" of a looked -foward -to -holiday. This past week we {I} have been trying to get back into the swing of things. Big grocery shopping trips to be had, laundry to be done...the home makers list goes on and on....

But I've been making some time for myself lately too. You see, last week I had a complete nervous breakdown. Well, not really. However, it was a tantrum of EPIC PROPORTIONS. I had a class to teach and NO clean, planned, "prefessor- like" outfit to wear... I was at the breaking point + something had to give. I think we all hit this wall at some point in life, especially when juggling parenthood + a career.


BUT, the good news is that, like a cat, I always manage to land on my feet. This week is a better week; I've got my A game on. It is an unpleasant feeling, to trample the ones you love, when you are in the midst of a crisis: mothers, husbands, etc. I suppose that is what being human is all about, though. Humility, recognizing our imperfections + striving toward our desires to be the best we can be; that is me, anyway. So I keep on truckin'; each day is a bit better than the one before. And I am feeling more confident. As I have said time + again; in many languages, the literal translation for CRISIS is OPPORTUNITY... Halloween marks the begining of the crazy holiday season. Several parties are already on my EVITE list, two of which are my own! Instead of focusing on how tough things can be, I am going to focus on all of the things in my life that I have to be grateful for {see photo above}. Instead of feeling inadequate, like I have myself spread over too many things, I will pat myself on the back for being able to juggle + balance so many things at once. Instead of wishing I could shop at Anthropologie all of the time, I will be glad to have a beautiful home to raise my children in... You get the gist.


So over the last week, instead of focusing on the things in life I wish I could change, but cannot...I will focus on the things I can do. Balancing my time better; for my family + my career. And as for me,well, I've been relishing in my "little successes" in regard to my diet + exercise. Perhaps there are others of you that are feeling this kind of "calm before the holiday storm" that I am feeling now? But this is life...I think a little early showing of The Polar Express might be just the thing to get the holiday mojo working? Or 'bout a little tvo'd Boardwalk Emipre! Have a great weekend everyone!


  1. I totally get what you are saying. I like the hopeful feeling you get After hitting the wall better than the despair Before hitting the wall. And congrats on your little successes. Sometimes you have to concentrate on those.

  2. Ummm excuse me mama, is your mister at the stone pony right now! Or am I standing next to an imposter??


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